Moi stupid life
I didn't realised that this whole attachment thing could get to me so badly. I have been feeling rather moody recently. Probably because I have not got used to it. Another reason could be that I do not have any friends with me in my workplace. Couldn't tell anyone how I feel other than writing it down here. It is impossible to tell the other inyerns because you never know if they would backstab you. It's not that it will happen but prevention is always better. As I've mentioned, I do not have a computer on my desk so it was impossible to email or surf the net at all. Messaging people seemed so impersonal and could hardly express myself appropriately too.
Everything just seemed so boring nowadays. I don't find the motivation to do anything. Surfing the net is always the first thing on my list when I get home but now it just seemed so troublesome. I am listless. I got home everyday from work and all I do was sit on the couch and watch the television. That's the laziest thing to do since I don't even have to click the mouse. I just need to watch what was shown in the screen.
People say food can make people happy. But that is definitely not the case for me. The food at the cafeteria taste so bad that almost all the colleagues dine outside. We were so stupid to eat there for the whole week. It was so expensive too, by the way. Nothing could make me laugh now. Well, maybe only every night at 10pm when I was glued to the television, watching My Lovely Samsoon. Other than that, nothing.
You asked what I did during work. I shall tell you that.
Filing, casting, filing, filing, filing, casting, filing, filing, casting, filing, filing, filing, stamping of dates to the documents.
That was what I did for the whole week. I filed 4 boxes of documents, by the way.
My life just seemed so disrupted and I hate it. No control of your life, I hate it. No daily dosage of gossips, no chatting online with my dear friends, no dinner and shopping with my dear friends, again. Nothing! Just plain work and home. No motivation, no laughter, no nothing.
Sure, I complained to some of you. But it just seemed like I am in no position to do so. I am, in fact, going through the same thing as almost of you here. Some may even be in a worst situation then me. You know who you are. What gives me the right to complain? But who gives a damn? I want to complain!
My life seemed so lifeless already. Reading some people's blog whom I know did not help either. As much as I hate to admit, she seemed to have the life I wanted. No, I want. Living a life I want, going to places I dream of. I am so not contented now.
I am unhappy now.
P.S. You guys don't have to bother cheering me up. Really. I don't think I would feel better. Not that it's your fault or what.
P.S.S. Happy Birthday to Jac!
Everything just seemed so boring nowadays. I don't find the motivation to do anything. Surfing the net is always the first thing on my list when I get home but now it just seemed so troublesome. I am listless. I got home everyday from work and all I do was sit on the couch and watch the television. That's the laziest thing to do since I don't even have to click the mouse. I just need to watch what was shown in the screen.
People say food can make people happy. But that is definitely not the case for me. The food at the cafeteria taste so bad that almost all the colleagues dine outside. We were so stupid to eat there for the whole week. It was so expensive too, by the way. Nothing could make me laugh now. Well, maybe only every night at 10pm when I was glued to the television, watching My Lovely Samsoon. Other than that, nothing.
You asked what I did during work. I shall tell you that.
Filing, casting, filing, filing, filing, casting, filing, filing, casting, filing, filing, filing, stamping of dates to the documents.
That was what I did for the whole week. I filed 4 boxes of documents, by the way.
My life just seemed so disrupted and I hate it. No control of your life, I hate it. No daily dosage of gossips, no chatting online with my dear friends, no dinner and shopping with my dear friends, again. Nothing! Just plain work and home. No motivation, no laughter, no nothing.
Sure, I complained to some of you. But it just seemed like I am in no position to do so. I am, in fact, going through the same thing as almost of you here. Some may even be in a worst situation then me. You know who you are. What gives me the right to complain? But who gives a damn? I want to complain!
My life seemed so lifeless already. Reading some people's blog whom I know did not help either. As much as I hate to admit, she seemed to have the life I wanted. No, I want. Living a life I want, going to places I dream of. I am so not contented now.
I am unhappy now.
P.S. You guys don't have to bother cheering me up. Really. I don't think I would feel better. Not that it's your fault or what.
P.S.S. Happy Birthday to Jac!
posted by Suzu at
2:51 PM
1 Comments:
siow,
many thgs i want to say.
firstly, thanks for ur PSS greeting. haha!
next, about the IPP.
hey, having go through-ed IPP myself, i have many thgs to share, so u will noe that u are not suffering all of this alone, etc.
the reason y most companies welcome us students to work with them is to clear all the documents that has been piled up for a long time - this is one of the possible reasons.
on my initial stage of work, i did almost the same stuff as u. like filing, photocopying and all. mainly PAPER work. it is partly cos my supervisor does not have the time to teach me, 2nd is that there is really alot of work to do. so our contribution to the company is significant, think bout that and u feel proud-er and not that staying there is =( and stuffs.
of course, being on attachment, they will give u this kinda work cos they got more impt to work to attend to. always think on the positive side, that each thg u learn is abt learning, and not about doing junkish work, and u will feel much better and ur ipp will be a totally overwhelming experience and not a boring one.
i have totally enjoyed my ipp. i hope u do so too. by then, u may end up not wanting to come back to school. why? there is no need to do tutorials, study and rush through all the ICAs, and study for the EXAMs when ur having IPP.
SOOOO look at the bright side lady! =D and everyday after work u can meet up with us for dinner.
PS. im starting work on wed, n i tell u, my work place is near tiong bahru mrt. its at river valley. not sure if u noe. ;)
cheers!
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